Tuesday 31 July 2012

The Truth Always Comes Out

*Kay so it isn't a HUGELY massive surprise, but it's still a surprise ^_^ also I am just warning you all that some of you may not be happy but ULTIMATELY you will see why this is a good thing...and everything I just said will make sense after you have read XD Oh yeah and remember that when I post in Italics it is a flashback unless of course it is the sneak peek section of a full chapter but you all know that! Anywaays, hope it's ok for you all :/*

Safaree sat rigid on his mother's couch, it was almost 7am and he hadn't slept. He couldn't. Everything that had happened was swirling around in his head and just wouldn't stop. What the hell was he going to tell Nicki. How the hell was he going to tell her, he sighed and rubbed his forehead as the memories took over.

Flashback


It was a friday night and the party was only just beginning. The Vaks had arrived at Safaree's for his 18th birthday party, bringing along with them plenty of alcohol and a good number of people that Safaree was almost certain he had never seen before. However with him being partially wasted already he welcomed them in without a care in the world. He had planned on getting completely shit-faced seeing as this would be his last chance to go wild until the seniors party in two weeks time, only it would be his turn to drive meaning no alcohol for him. Nicki, Candi and Lauren was sat comfortably on his lounge room couch, everybody else was milling about with drinks and others dancing to the music which was now absolutely blaring.


"Why in the hell are y'all just sat like a bunch of bores on MY birthday?!" He staggered a little and poked himself in the chest as he said 'MY'. The girls just giggled at his current state until he collapsed on to the couch next to Nicki and he rested his head on her shoulder making her start to laugh again. Candi and Lauren looked at each other.


"Candi, I wanna go get another drink. You coming?" She raised her eyebrow.


"oh, uhm yeah I think I'll grab another while I'm up." The two smirked and looked back at Nicki trying to lift Safaree off of her as they walked away.


"Faree! My god! Yo' big ass head is seriously crushing me!" She started moving her shoulders up and down trying to get him to move.


"Aye! I'm tryna get some shut eye here!" She knew he was doing it on purpose because she could see the corners of his mouth turning up into a smile.


"Nigga, get off!" She laughed loudly and pushed him forcefully making him erupt into laughter.


*** Three Hours Later ***


Just when they thought there couldn't be anymore people crammed into his house it seemed as though the number of party guests had doubled. People were pouring out of the front and back doors due to the little space left downstairs, guests were piled all the way upstairs and cluttered the hallway and bathroom too. Safaree had smartly locked all bedroom doors before everyone arrived. If his parents came home from their week away to find any trace a party they would surely hit the roof. Candi and Lauren had separated and gone off with the guys of their fancy whilst Nicki was sat with Safaree and some randoms in the kitchen. They were both well and truly smashed.


"Sah-fah-ree?" Nicki yelled for the fourth time, only more slowly and right in his ear. she was slurring madly and swaying on the spot.


"Whaat?! Nic I can't....I can't hear you!" He squinted and tried to look at her only there was now three of her in his eyes. She waved her hand at him as if to say 'forget it' and tried to walk off through all of the bodies pushed up against one another. He decided to follow her and staggered behind. When they finally reached Safaree's bedroom door he patted all of his pockets trying to find his keys, after around six pat-downs he found them and took another ten minutes trying to get the right key before pushing open the door and locking it behind them, people were already trying to push their way in. They wanted beds.


"I-I said I don't...I feel funny Faree!" She clamped her eyes shut and sat on his bed with her hands pressed on her temples. "Ughh, I'm gon' throw up!" Before Safaree could react in his drunken stupor she bolted, wobbly, to his en suite and emptied her stomach into the toilet. The sound of her retching honestly made him feel queasy.


"Yo, Nic...You kay?" He decided to sit, it made his dizziness worse though. After hearing the toilet flush and the sink water running along with the clanging of the cabinet she emerged from the bathroom looking rather pale.


"Who did this to me?" She whined and flopped on to the bed next to him face down. He laughed at her dramatic behaviour and fell back so that he was laying next to her. Before he could jokingly answer her question he felt her moving next to him at first he thought she was going to vomit again but he jumped when she turned her head to face him and put her hand gently on the side of his face.


"You're my best friend, y'know that?" Her eyes were blinking lazily. Safaree put his hand on top of hers on his own face and smiled, answering her question silently.


"And you're mine." He shut his eyes feeling the room start spinning even more. She watched as intently as she could and moved closer to him snuggling into his neck. His eyes shot open as he felt her breathing on his neck, he hadn't realised that his arm had automatically moved to be around her tiny body and was brushing against her ass. "Nic?"


"Hmmm?" She didn't move as he called her name but he felt her humming.


"Stop, please don't do that." He slurred and tried to pull her hands from wandering up his shirt.


"Whyyyyy?" It came out as a squeaky whine but she continued to do it anyway. Before he knew it she was sat on top of him pulling his shirt up over his head. It took a while considering the state of them both. He knew this was really wrong, something was telling him that, but at the same time he didn't want her to stop. That thought was strongly reinforced by her grinding on him as she got to his belt buckle. Snapping out of the argument of his conscience he sat up slowly holding on to her tiny waist and pressed his lips against hers, at this point he didn't really care that she had vomited, he could automatically taste toothpaste as their tongues massaged one another. The moans and noises she was making were getting him hard, fast. Swiftly picking her up he moved them both so that he was on top and gently but urgently unzipped her black fitted dress and threw it to the side with his shirt. His jeans, boxers and her underwear all followed shortly after. The way she called his name drove him wild as he  pounded into her with more force making her scream even louder as she came all over his dick, he came a few strokes later and collapsed to the side of her.


The muffled noises coming from downstairs made him stir slightly. He blinked numerous times trying to focus his vision on the alarm clock on his side-table. It was 8am. Wiping his hand down his face he groaned, suddenly feeling something warm touching his leg. He flinched and looked at the naked beauty sleeping next to him. Some of last night's events came flooding back, panicking he lifted his covers to see them both laying naked underneath them. He can't have had sex with his best friend. No way. No doubt about it, he really did have strong feelings for her that were stronger than that of a best friend but he was waiting until she was maybe sixteen or seventeen until he told her and especially have sex with her! However he always had the worry somebody else would snap her up before him. He came back to reality when she shifted slightly, he made sure she was still asleep whilst he slipped out of the bed and gathered his clothes when he noticed it. He breathed a sigh of relief as he walked over to the used condom laying on the floor, filled with his deposit. He decided to get dressed and then go to the guest room and flush the condom in there so as not to wake Nicki. After showering in there and changing his clothes, once realising they were covered with drink stains, he returned to his own room. Nicki was sat looking really confused with the covers pulled up tightly around herself.


"Why am I in here?" She asked warily, she noticed he was dressed and he looked like he had showered. His heart dropped and his mouth went dry realising that she obviously couldn't remember anything. "Please Faree, don't tell me I had slept with somebody in your bed?" She looked like she was about to burst into tears as she held her hand on her forehead. He really couldn't bring himself to tell her and felt like a coward, but really what was the harm? They used a condom, she couldn't remember anything, and to top it all off he thought it would break her if he told her the truth.


"No, you felt sick so we came in here whilst you threw up and then you wanted to shower, so I told you that you could stay in here for the night. I stopped in the guest room." He moved over and sat on the bed, he felt sick about lying to her especially about this. Her face relaxed almost instantly.


"Oh my god! I'm so relieved! I have never been so drunk that I have forgotten everything." She blushed and looked down. "Um, Imma get dressed and then I'll come help y'all clean up." She said it quietly as he nodded.


"You don't have to help Nic, I'm surprised you ain't throwing up after the amount you drank!" He smiled at her shocked face.


"Nigga! I bet you drank just as much!" She laughed as she hit him playfully.


"Nah, I did drink a lot. Only difference is I don't forget everything....Just some things!"


"Wait? How would you know if you only forgot some things?" she looked confused.


"Well, people always be talkin' about the shit I did at parties but Ion ever remember those things. I remember parts and forget parts." He shrugged as he finished his sentence.


"Whatever! Imma get dressed now...So could you please....leave?" He jumped up remembering she was naked. How could he have forgotten such a body.


"Oh right! Yeah, see you downstairs in a bit, you want toast?" He asked from the doorway, she gave him a nod before he smiled and shut the door.


End Of Flashback

How could one of the best nights of his life become forgotten under one, big, sickening lie. He was glad his Mom still wasn't up yet. He knew she would be asking about him and Nicki and trying to pull information out of him. He loved her dearly and she was always there for him but right now he couldn't handle that type of pressure. He was too busy trying to figure out a way he could tell Nicki.

Flashback: A Couple of Weeks Ago


After another petty row with Nicki, Safaree made his way over to Rex's house he and Candi had also had a bust up. As soon as he entered and they dapped up, the drinks cabinet was opened allowing their troubles to become less of a burden.


"I'm sick of arguing with her, man! Like, I love her to death but sometimes..." He shook his head and exhaled. Safaree nodded in agreement before adding to the conversation.


"I know what you mean! I work damn hard to pay the bills and shit and I know she is thankful and she's busy with Noah and I forget she's still seventeen sometimes...well almost eighteen I guess...anyway, where was I going with this again?" He rubbed his head as Rex let out a hearty chuckle.


"Ion what it is at the moment but I feel like...I got all this stuff locked up inside and...Oh shit now I'm sounding like a fuckin' girl!" They both laughed at his comments before Safaree had an idea.


"Hey, lets play confession or whatever it's called. You just...confess things, I guess. Y'know, let things off your chest. Clear your conscience." He waved his drink around dramatically and put on a posh accent as he said his piece.


"Alright. You go first." Safaree sat and thought for a minute until he came up with something and started snapping his fingers.


"Kay, kay, I got it. The other day Nic was going on about me bein' a pig and not cleaning up after myself, so I decided to do the laundry and "accidentally" got bleach on her favourite top." He cheesed before pointing at Rex indicating it was his turn. After each confession they would throw back a shot of whiskey. It was now round four and Rex was telling his confession as Safaree listened intently.


"Right, so a while back...Your 18th birthday party I stole the keys outta your pocket and I fucked Karissa Woods...on your fucking bedroom floor!!" He started to cackle. "But wait there's more! After we done, I return the keys and act like nothin' happened only to remember I left the condom in there! I never went back for it!" Being as drunk as he was at this point he couldn't stop laughing at his stupid story. Safaree on the other hand had been skipping his shots, not wanting to go home drunk to Nicki and Noah. Sat almost as sober as a judge he wanted to throttle him there and then but where would that have gotten him. The condom he found wasn't his. That means they hadn't used one and there was a 50% chance that Noah was his son.


End Of Flashback

He wasn't acting the same around Nicki now that he knew Noah could be his, luckily she thought it was the fact that Drake was always going to be in their lives. It's all he and her had ever wanted, for Noah to be his, but how was he supposed to tell her that they had drunken sex on his 18th birthday only to have him lie about it and keep it a secret for over a year. He was always under the impression that they had used protection so he figured the baby wasn't his when she revealed she was pregnant. His thoughts were confirmed in the hospital when she told him it was Drake. But now, he had to face up to his responsibilities and tell her everything....

*Ohhhh you have no idea how long that took -___- On top of my uni work XD I fell asleep on my desk doing my Criminology homework and skipped it to do this so if I get asked to leave the tutorial tomorrow it's your fault Barbz! XD Just kidding I did as much as I could. Puttin' my books first ^_^
Well hope you ain't too mad with Safaree for sleeping with a 15 year old Nic AND not telling her drunken ass XD btw some of her actions (Not the Sex!) are based on my behaviour recently O___O I got well and truly hammered the night before my birthday and cannot for the life of me remember anything!! Pretty sure my drink was spiked >_> I also woke up on the day of my birthday feeling like shit, shaking like crazy and I had a mouthful of blood, it was all over my pillow and sheets. No memories of my night out :((( The moral of my experiences and this chapter is DON'T DRINK TOO MUCH BARBZ!! XD Muuah*

Saturday 28 July 2012

It All Comes Together (Full Chapter)

*Guys, I am soooooo sorry!! After reading all of your comments and being confused for hours I realised that I had labelled the photo "Noah Lloyd Samuels" This was a MISTAKE I apologise for the confusion!! I meant to name him "Noah Lloyd Graham" that way his middle name is after Safaree and he would have Drake's last name. Sorry :/ Well here is the rest of the chapter, it's boring I know but there is going to be drama coming up in the next 2 chapters....I hope! Well hope it's ok for you all*


Nicki walked slowly through the supermarket aisles trying decide what she wanted. She wasn't going to make it a huge thing but she wanted to cook something nice for her friends and family in celebration, after all her baby was only going to turn one once in his life. She looked to the side of her where his head was resting on her shoulder, she knew every mother thought the same thing but Noah was definitely the cutest baby she'd ever seen, she truly was blessed. As she neared the end of the aisle her phone sang out from her purse, quickly trying to get it out so that Noah didn't wake up. It was Safaree.

"Hey babe, what's up?" She asked as she continued to search the shelves with her eyes.

"Nothin' I'm jus lettin' you know that everythin' over here is sorted..like all the bloons and shit." He made his way back to the kitchen as he talked.

"Ohh good!! And by the way, you could act a liddle more...Ion know, excited!" She laughed whilst trying to throw some food packets into her hand basket.

"Sorry bae, just got a lot on my mind." He sighed and shut the cupboards waiting for her to answer.

"I know." She paused. "Is it 'bout Drake?" Her voice got softer as she asked him. But there was just silence. "The first sign of trouble, I promise he is gone, but you gotta understand Noah is his son. He should be at his birthday." She wished Safaree was his real dad just as much as he did.

"I know, I know...anyway hurry home. You got a nigga over here goin' hungry!" They both laughed before saying they loved one another and hanging up. After paying she made her way back to the car placing the shopping bags down first as she strapped Noah into his car seat and then loaded all the bags into her car. Noah was a super heavy sleeper so he remained asleep for the whole shopping trip and the ride home. As she pulled up to the driveway she saw Jelani's car parked outside their house. He and Danika had moved back from Florida and into the house Nicki and Safaree were living in, which meant they had to find their own place. Luckily they found one really close by and moved almost as soon as they bought it. As soon as they heard her car both guys came out to help her get the shopping whilst she just focused on getting Noah into his crib so she could start cooking.

Mama Carol, her father, Caiah, Mama Samuels, Mama Graham, Drake, Candi, Lauren and the Vaks were all coming over for dinner at 6:00pm which gave Nicki four hours to prepare. She wasn't nervous, just stressing about time and maybe a little worried about the atmosphere between Safaree and Drake. Although looking over at him now he seemed pretty relaxed as he was laughing with Jelani about something.

*** Three hours later ***

The food was almost done as Nicki left Danika in charge and went to shower, leaving Safaree to feed Noah.

"Here, you go sit down. I'll take care of this." Jelani tried to usher Danika out of the kitchen.

"Umm babe, no offense but ain't nobody wanna be eatin' your charred food!" She pushed him away as he held his mouth open in shock.

"I am a damn good cook!" This made Safaree laugh as he continued to spoon feed Noah baby food on his knee making him squawk between mouthfuls. "That liddle man sounds just like his mom!" Jelani added but soon stopped laughing as Nicki emerged from the stairs with her hair neatly done with minimal makeup.

"What's so funny?" she looked between their blank faces before shaking her head. "Forget it, prolly just one of yo' smart ass comments anyhow!" Before anyone could respond there was a knock at the door. Running to open it she was happy to see her Mother stood holding a present with Cai stood by her feet and her father stood behind her.

"You're the first here! Come in, come in." She opened the door wider as they all shuffled into the warm house, Cai hugged Nicki's legs before dashing straight to Safaree and Noah, who was now done eating. Her Mom hugged her tightly and moved on to Jelani, whilst Nicki and her father just stood awkwardly before she went around him and shut the door. They all conversed lightly and laughed amongst one another as Nicki and Danika finished up the food just in time before everybody else arrived at the same time, with an unexpected guest brought along too.


Drake was the last to walk through the door behind everyone as he wiped his feet on the mat he turned to look at Nicki, who was still holding the door open for them.


"Hey Nic." He smiled warmly as he put his arm around the girl next to him. Nicki just nodded her head at them both and smiled. "Oh yeah, this is Caitlin my girlfriend, and this here is Nicki." Caitlin held her hand out for Nicki to shake, for a moment Drake wasn't sure she was going to return the gesture but she did.


"Well, it's nice to meet you. Anyway come in, we're about to eat." She shut the door behind them. "Oh and Drake, Noah's in the lounge room with Faree." He and Caitlin headed towards the lounge room as Nicki made her way back to the kitchen, bumping into Danika as she got there.


"Woaah Nic! You trynna make me spill this shit?" She pointed at the glass in her hand filled with her Dad's favourite alcoholic drink. She pulled a face at the glass and moved over to the oven, pulling out the food tray.


"He brought a hoe with him. Can you believe that?" She continued doing what she was doing as she said it.


"His girlfriend?" She asked quizzically before setting the drink down and moving over to Nicki.


"Yeah. Caitlin. She looks like a fuckin' model!" She threw the tray down quite roughly before pulling enough plates out for everybody.


"Um Nic, this might not be my place but what's the problem? Drake is your ex and your baby daddy. Nothing more, nothing less. You better calm yourself before you go back in there. Jus' sayin'." That was all she said, she left the room before Nicki could even reply. She was right though. Why was she acting jealously. Shaking her head she made her way back out to the table, with a little help from Safaree they were all set up and ready to eat.


Drake was still cradling a sleeping Noah as he and Caitlin sat comfortably on the couch. Everyone was done eating and were now sat relaxing in the lounge. Mama Carol had put Cai down to sleep in Nicki and Safaree's bed as he fell asleep just before 10pm. Noah should really have been in his crib hours ago too but Nicki wanted for Drake to see him on his birthday. She was watching them intently, not realising that somebody was doing the same to her.


"Imma go sort some more drinks out, give me a hand Nic?" Safaree looked at her as she broke her gaze away from Noah and Drake.


"Oh, yeah. Sure." Following behind him they both stood silently in the kitchen after he closed the door.


"What's up with you?" He moved closer to her but she looked down.


"Nothing babe, I'm just tired. I didn't expect everyone to stay this late and Noah should have been in bed ages ago." She pouted and tiptoed to peck him on the lips, he returned the kiss and took her bottom lip into his mouth turning it into more than a kiss as his hands went straight to her waist before she pulled away with a moan. "Later, now lets get these drinks." She grinned at his sad face and tapped him on the butt, moving around him to get glasses out of the cupboard.


Noah was now being rocked gently in Mama Graham's arms. Nicki always thought she looked super cute holding him and she was going to feel so bad taking him off her but she was getting really bothered by the fact tat it was now almost 11pm and he was still not in his crib. It had taken her and Safaree weeks to get him into a good routine.


"I think I'm gonna get the birthday boy off to bed now." She smiled sweetly as Mama Graham handed him to her, he didn't stir so Nicki was relieved.


"Well, Nika I think we're gon' head off now." Mama Carol spoke as she emerged from Nicki and Safaree's room with a tired looking Cai being carried on her hip. He rubbed his eyes sleepily as Nicki kissed him and her mother on their foreheads, letting them say their goodbyes to Noah too. The little dinner had been a success, no dramas had occurred, Drake and Safaree were civil with one another and Candi and Lauren had managed to keep the rude remarks about Drake to themselves. Although she still got upset when she thought about what he did to her she knew that it was the drink and whatever the hell he was taking or smoking that made him do it. He was the father of her baby and she didn't want Noah being raised hearing awful things being said about him. It wasn't fair. Looking around she realised the only two left were Drake and Caitlin. Before she could divert her eyes from an approaching Drake he stroked his finger under Noah's chin and smiled at him before turning his gaze to Nicki.


"Nic, can I talk to you for a second?" He looked at her hopefully as Caitlin walked over and stood patiently by his side.


"Sure, I'll just go put Noah in his cr-" She was cut off as Safaree took him gently out of her arms.


"Here, I'll take him." She smiled lovingly at him as he disappeared into Noah's room shutting the door quietly behind him.


"So, what did you wanna ask Drake?" She kept looking between him and Caitlin, who annoyingly was still stood there.


"I was just wondering, y'know, because Noah is a year old now, we could sort out some sort of timetable or arrangement that includes him staying over at our place on certain nights?" He awaited nervously for an answer. "...but only if that's ok with you?" She saw Caitlin nudge him after he added that and just glared at her. Honestly though she was lost for words, she didn't even like Noah stopping over at Jelani's for the night and he was her brother living only 10 minutes away.


"Look, Drake you know that I love for Noah to spend time with you but I really don't think that's such a good idea." She was playing with her hands nervously as she spoke. "I mean for a start, he's never been away from me and you've never looked after him overnight before." Shortly after he was born he had complications with his heart again, which needed surgery to be corrected. They we warned afterwards that the effects could be everlasting and he would always need routine checkups. Luckily he had stayed fine ever since the operation. Drake sighed and just looked at her but she was too busy looking at Caitlin who was rolling her eyes at Nicki's answer. "You got somethin' to say?" She rolled her neck and crossed her arms as she said it.


"You be actin' like he's just your child! Drake is his father you can't deny him the right to spend time with him!" She took a step closer to Nicki. "S'all I have to say. Thanks for the dinner." She turned to Drake leaving Nicki stood in shock. "I'll be waiting in the car babe." And with that she left.


"Seriously? Thas your girl?" She shook her head and stormed into the kitchen trying to carry all the glasses, cups and rubbish with her.


"Look I know what you're thinkin'! That she's just some hoe I picked up a few days ago, well she's not. I been seein' her for about five months now and sh-" He couldn't continue as she whipped her head around quickly.


"Wait, what?! You mean to tell me that you had her all this time actin' like the stand in mommy whilst Noah's with you, and you didn't even think to let me know?!" She threw her hands up and let them drop to her side. 


"Y'know what? I can't be dealin' with you when you're like this...I'll, I'll just call you tomorrow." He threw his hand down and shook his head walking out swiftly leaving her stood there.


After cleaning up and showering individually, Safaree and Nicki were laying in bed together in silence until Safaree spoke.


"What did Drake want?" He sniffed and turned his body to face her as she sighed and carried on playing with her pink polished fingernails.


"He wants more time with Noah, like, sleeping at "their" house and all that." She put air quotes around "their" when she said it and rolled her eyes. She was about to turn over when Safaree ripping the covers off of them both made her jump. "Faree, what the fuck?!" He didn't answer as he scrambled around looking for some clothes to put on. "Safaree? Answer me! What are you doing?!"


"What am I doing? I'll tell you what I'm NOT doing! I'm not 'bout to lie in bed with you dribbling on about these two! I saw you watching them all night! I saw you givin' her dirty looks and what hurts the most Onika, is how I saw the way you looked at him and Noah!" He was now yelling and after finally dressing he stormed over to the bedroom door only to be stopped by a crying Nicki.


"Faree, please? Don't go?" She put her hands on his chest only to have him gently remove them.


"I'll be back later." He moved her to the side and grabbed his keys going past the hallway table.


"Fine! Fuck off then, in fact don't even come home tonight!" She didn't mean any of that and she knew it just as much as he did. She was merely trying to get a reaction out of him. He just stood still as the words bounced off of him, opening the door and slamming out behind him. She slid down the door frame as the tears started to fall more readily, and it must have been the door slamming but soon enough she heard Noah crying loudly from his room. As she scooped him up and tried to soothe him she went and sat in the rocking chair by the window, holding him as close as she could. She knew that babies could sense weird things so she guessed he could feel that she was upset because there was just no calming him. Three long hours later he was finally asleep again. She felt emotionally and physically exhausted mostly from crying for so long, pulling her phone out she decided to text him.


Thanks for waking our baby up. Ur such an ass.


She climbed back into bed and smoothed his pillow out as her phone buzzed letting her know that she had received a text.


He's not my kid though, is he?


She had to read the message four times before she actually realised that she had read it right the first time. she couldn't believe he really just said that, she knew he wasn't actually asking but merely making a point that he wasn't Noah's dad and that was it for the night, she cried for what felt like forever. She had't even slept when she heard Noah stirring on the baby monitor, looking at her alarm clock it was only 6am...


*Kay, so I don't like this and I PROMISE I will try and think up some better stuff but if I can't then I'm prolly just going to abondon this fic until I have better ideas. Also I will explain the name choice of Caitlin, only for the benefit of myself XD My actual friend Caitlin was being a super hoe to me not too long ago and she's the only one who knows about me writing these blogs so I told her I would write her into my stories as a bitch and ta-daaah, there you have it, Bitchy Caitlin >:P Again sorry for the name confusion :/ I repeat his name is actually "Noah Lloyd Graham" XD Thanks for the comments on the previous chapters, really appreciate them!! Muuah*

Tuesday 17 July 2012

*Sneak Peek* It All Comes Together

*Alllriiighty guys just a liddle announcement, all of my posts from now on are possibly going to happen less often or be shorter than usual :(( I have problems with my hip and knee joints, especially in cold weather like now and it's bad for me to be sat like this for too long, it gets really painful but I have started on these new pills so hopefully they help, but I have to take like nine a day...NINE!! And they are mad big!  But anyhow hopefully they actually help and I can get back to typing more ^___^ Well enjoy a sneak peek for the first chapter!*

Nicki walked slowly through the supermarket aisles trying decide what she wanted. She wasn't going to make it a huge thing but she wanted to cook something nice for her friends and family in celebration, after all her baby was only going to turn one once in his life. She looked to the side of her where his head was resting on her shoulder, she knew every mother thought the same thing but Noah was definitely the cutest baby she'd ever seen, she truly was blessed. As she neared the end of the aisle her phone sang out from her purse, quickly trying to get it out so that Noah didn't wake up. It was Safaree.

"Hey babe, what's up?" She asked as she continued to search the shelves with her eyes.

"Nothin' I'm jus lettin' you know that everythin' over here is sorted..like all the bloons and shit." He made his way back to the kitchen as he talked.

"Ohh good!! And by the way, you could act a liddle more...Ion know, excited!" She laughed whilst trying to throw some food packets into her hand basket.

"Sorry bae, just got a lot on my mind." He sighed and shut the cupboards waiting for her to answer.

"I know." She paused. "Is it 'bout Drake?" Her voice got softer as she asked him. But there was just silence. "The first sign of trouble, I promise he is gone, but you gotta understand Noah is his son. He should be at his birthday." She wished Safaree was his real dad just as much as he did.

"I know, I know...anyway hurry home. You got a nigga over here goin' hungry!" They both laughed before saying they loved one another and hanging up. After paying she made her way back to the car placing the shopping bags down first as she strapped Noah into his car seat and then loaded all the bags into her car. Noah was a super heavy sleeper so he remained asleep for the whole shopping trip and the ride home. As she pulled up to the driveway she saw Jelani's car parked outside their house. He and Danika had moved back from Florida and into the house Nicki and Safaree were living in, which meant they had to find their own place. Luckily they found one really close by and moved almost as soon as they bought it. As soon as they heard her car both guys came out to help her get the shopping whilst she just focused on getting Noah into his crib so she could start cooking.

Mama Carol, her father, Caiah, Mama Samuels, Mama Graham, Drake, Candi, Lauren and the Vaks were all coming over for dinner at 6:00pm which gave Nicki four hours to prepare. She wasn't nervous, just stressing about time and maybe a little worried about the atmosphere between Safaree and Drake. Although looking over at him now he seemed pretty relaxed as he was laughing with Jelani about something.

*** Three hours later ***

The food was almost done as Nicki left Danika in charge and went to shower, leaving Safaree to feed Noah.

"Here, you go sit down. I'll take care of this." Jelani tried to usher Danika out of the kitchen.

"Umm babe, no offense but ain't nobody wanna be eatin' your charred food!" She pushed him away as he held his mouth open in shock.

"I am a damn good cook!" This made Safaree laugh as he continued to spoon feed Noah baby food on his knee making him squawk between mouthfuls. "That liddle man sounds just like his mom!" Jelani added but soon stopped laughing as Nicki emerged from the stairs with her hair neatly done with minimal makeup.

"What's so funny?" she looked between their blank faces before shaking her head. "Forget it, prolly just one of yo' smart ass comments anyhow!" Before anyone could respond there was a knock at the door. Running to open it she was happy to see her Mother stood holding a present with Cai stood by her feet and her father stood behind her.

"You're the first here! Come in, come in." She opened the door wider as they all shuffled into the warm house, Cai hugged Nicki's legs before dashing straight to Safaree and Noah, who was now done eating. Her Mom hugged her tightly and moved on to Jelani, whilst Nicki and her father just stood awkwardly before she went around him and shut the door. They all conversed lightly and laughed amongst one another as Nicki and Danika finished up the food just in time before everybody else arrived at the same time, with an unexpected guest brought along too...

*I'm sorry it's only a sneak peek, hopefully I come up with some more ideas before thursday haha well I hope it was okay :/ Also I will do more flashbacks in these chapters so y'all are caught up with what happened in the year you missed ^_^ *


Sunday 15 July 2012

You're Never Alone - Part Two (Full Chapter)

*Sooo it's the last chapter of part one of this story *wipes tear away* Haha welll hope you enjoy!! Muuah*

They all looked at the door as Klara shuffled in with her bag of equipment, Drake jumped up to help her as she dropped her purse on the floor and couldn't shut the door Safaree remained by Nicki's side holding her hand.

"So Nicki, your little boy's decided to make an early appearance huh?" She said trying to lighten the mood as she moved the coffee table out of her way and sat on the floor but Nicki just looked at Safaree with fear in her eyes. "It's ok, I'm here now." She added, noticing the frightened look on Nicki's face. "Kay, firstly Imma need you gentlemen to get me a few towels, some water and maybe some pillows too?" She got straight down to business, clasping her hands together looking at the two guys expectantly. "Well? Come on, we have a baby on the way y'know?" Safaree and Drake shot up without thinking, going in separate directions to gather the things she needed. Klara pulled Nicki's knees up carefully.

"I'm just going to check how dilated you are, okay?" She asked quietly and sweetly not wanting to alarm her. Nicki just nodded and opened her legs more as Klara slipped some sterilised gloves on.

"Mkaay, that's not goin' to sit well." she muttered as she checked over Nicki. "You're only six centimetres dilated, you have to be ten before you can start pushing." She held her eyes wide open as she looked at Nicki. "So that means you're going to have to be brave and strong, just like I know you are, and last through these contractions okay?" Nicki had teared up again.

"What if I c-can't do it?" She wiped furiously at the tears that just kept falling.

"I believe you can do it. You're a little fighter!" She smiled and patted her knee, causing Nicki to smile weakly back at her. As if on cue Safaree and Drake returned with all of the required items and resumed their original places. "Now before we get any further, are you happy to have the two gentlemen in the room for the birth or am I to kick them out?" She looked at Nicki waiting for an answer.

"No, they can stay." She said through gritted teeth as another contraction rippled through her. "Ugghh! How much....longer.....do I have to stay like this?!" She half yelled gripping Safaree's hand tightly.

"Just breathe, okay? You're gonna want to push but you musn't do that unless I say it's okay, you understand?" Klara asked again as she checked to see how dilated she was. Nicki just huffed and nodded as the pain subsided again, the contractions were getting closer together and even more painful. "Alright, you're almost at eight centimetres now." Drake watched jealously as Safaree pressed his forehead against Nicki's temple, with her turning so that her forehead was against his and he kissed her lightly.

"You can do this babe, I know you can." He squeezed her hand and she gratefully squeezed back.

"Please can I have drink?" She had been oblivious to her incredible thirst, forgetting that the house was super heated to her liking. Although she wasn't liking it that much right now, she felt sweaty and gross.

Before anyone could act on her request she lunged forward and let out a cry of pain as yet another contraction ripped through her, without thinking she went to grab something on the other side of her and found herself crushing Drake's hand in her grasp. In her head it was his punishment, seeing his face wrinkled in pain made her feel a little better. She tried to get back up on to her knees but both guys stopped her.

"No, Nic you have to sit still bae." Safaree tried to move her to a sitting position but Klara stopped him.

"Just let her get to where she wants to be, she'll find a position that suits her." She was slightly intrigued usually most women found it more comfortable to be in the position was already in. They all watched as she got on to her knees and rested her hands on Klara's shoulders like she was with the coffee table. "Okay, Safaree you come swap places with me and I'll move behind her, that way I have better access." As soon as they switched Nicki felt far more comfortable, looking Safaree dead in the eye, still bent over slightly as she grasped on to his shoulders and moved her hands up the back of his neck as she swayed trying to ease the pain. Drake was getting angrier by the minute watching them together, but soon sorted himself out when he saw Klara looking at him sternly. "Alright Nicki, you're almost there. Just focus on breathing, kay hun?" She said as she checked her dilation again.

"You hear that Nic?" Safaree whispered as he looked at her worried face. "Just concentrate on breathing." He rested his hands on top of hers which had moved back to his shoulders as she continued rocking on her knees.

"I'm scared faree, really scared." She managed to whisper before looking down and grimacing as the next contraction came, she was really fighting the urge to push this time. But she couldn't stop herself as she let out a long groan and let her head hang down, resting it in the crook of Safaree's neck.

"Onika, don't you dare push!" Klara had to keep in my mind that Nicki was just sixteen, and only just turned sixteen at that. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell. It's just we don't want any tearing." She said apologetically. She soon started speaking again with a shocked voice. "Oh! Okay you're ten centimetres now so with the next contraction I want you to push, yeah?" But before she could answer Klara was tapping the inside of her leg, asking her to spread her legs more. Nicki couldn't believe this was it, she was about to have her baby boy. As she moved her legs as far apart as they would go she heard Safaree whispering to her.

"I'm so proud of you. You're so brave." He kissed her lightly on the lips, lingering for a while. "Now, you ready to see your baby?" He smiled at her as he pulled away from the kiss, he hated seeing her in this kind of pain especially when he knew he couldn't do anything about it.

"Our baby." She whispered back tearfully as she prepared herself for what was to come, wincing as the pain took over yet again.

"Okay Nicki, dear, I want you start pushing for me now." Klara was positioned behind a bent over Nicki who was still leaning on Safaree. She heard Klara's request and did as she was asked. "That's it, well done. Keep going.....seven, eight, nine, ten. Breathe." Nicki cried out as she finished pushing. It was the most intense pain she had ever felt, and she was getting more distressed knowing that she still had a long time to go.

"Uhh, Faree it hurts so fucking much! I can't! I can't do it!" She panted as she tried to regain her composure.

"Shhh, you're okay, you heard what Klara said. You're doing great, you hear me?" He kept running his hands up and down her arms trying to comfort her, which strangely worked. Klara looked at him gratefully. The last thing she needed was for Nicki to get worked up and panicky.

"Your baby's crowning, so I can see the top of his head! A head full of hair just like his mommy!" Klara grinned looking at Safaree who passed the comment on to Nicki, she was only tuned in to whatever he said. It was like she had blocked out everything else in the room. She tried to wipe her flushed face but Safaree grabbed a towel and did it for her.

"You mean our baby?" Drake butted in with a mad look on his face.

"Yes, of course that's what I meant." Klara glared at him, she didn't want to start trouble but she had heard about what he did to Nicki because Safaree had called her to ask her about her breathing a while ago. He didn't want Nicki to know that he had told her so she kept quiet and turned her concentration back to Nicki, who was now breathing quickly as another contraction came. Klara started to get more concerned as this went on for another fifteen minutes. They weren't getting anywhere, but before she could say anything Nicki screamed out causing all three of the bystanders to look at her nervously. Klara lifted the bottom of Nicki's baggy t-shirt to see the baby emerging some more. She guessed Nicki could feel the shoulders coming through, hence her screaming so she held her hands under Nicki ready. "Keep going! You're almost there, just one more push Nicki." She sounded more like she was pleading with her than coaching her. Out of nowhere she had a surge of energy and pushed with all her might, letting out a dull moan into Safaree's neck as she felt Klara supporting the baby's head and gently tug his little legs out. His loud screams filled the room as Klara wiped his face down and Nicki breathed heavily, looking at Safaree as the tears rolled down her face. He could see the relief on her face as she panted, still trying to get her breath back. Klara handed the baby to Nicki through her still parted legs. She looked down to see her baby for the first time and as soon as she lowered herself to sit and took him in her arms he immediately stopped crying. She couldn't stop looking at him, he was so tiny especially as he was six weeks early. Safaree was in awe too, but Drake couldn't even see.

"Well done Onika! Who wants to cut the cord?" Nicki payed no attention, she was too busy admiring her baby boy. But Safaree and Drake just stared at one another, klara regretted asking. However, with Safaree being the bigger man he just nodded at Drake who in returned smiled faintly as a thank you. Nicki had looked up to see the exchange of gestures and kissed Safaree passionately before mouthing "Thank you" to him.

*** Two Hours Later ***

Nicki had been cleaned up, showered and was now laying comfortably in her bed with Safaree sat on the other side next to her cradling Noah. She just watched them admiringly as she fought to keep her eyes open. It was almost 3:00am and after six hours of hell all she wanted to do was sleep. Klara cancelled the ambulance, which was taking it's sweet ass time anyways, and stayed with them to keep an eye on Nicki and Noah as well as helping her to breastfeed him whilst the guys called the relatives. Drake left after holding Noah for the first time, realising what a dick he had been. But what happened on this night wouldn't be forgotten. There was no way he just going to roll over an let Safaree take his place. He was going to do whatever it took to get her back, and Noah too. At about 4:00am Klara headed off too, after congratulating Nicki and hugging her what felt like a million times. Then it was just Nicki, Safaree and Noah. She held him once more and placed him gently into his little blue moses basket next to her bed before snuggling up to Safaree and started to drift off to sleep as he held her tightly.

"I love you Onika." He rested his head on hers.

"Love you too Faree." She replied sleepily as she lay with her head on his chest.

***

Noah Lloyd Samuels: (I know it isn't a great picture but it's the best I could find!)





*BOOM the end!! I feel so good that the first part of the story is finished!! ^____^ *sighs* *Nicki's cinematic voice* now for part two!! Haha sorry it dragged on forever I really didn't intend for it to be this long! Haha can you imagine if I just did another chapter where Nicki woke up and it was all a dream XD I can just picture your liddle faces like this -___- Anyway, now to answer your question @SoftLykeButta: Yes I am a UK Barb ^__^ But I moved to Australia when I was 13, I'm 19 now so that's like 5 years, it'll be 6 years this year :'(  And @Jamaicaz_Barbie Thanks so much for wishing me luck with school! I just found out that I managed to pass all of my university exams too, one was a Distinction! *happy dances* Also as you can all see, NOAH was the name that I pulled out of the hat so that one won :)) Right, hopefully I'll be posting again tomorrow or wednesday. I'll still be posting on this blog but it will just be a year on from now. Hope it was ok for you all, please excuse any mistakes it's 1:10am here and ignore any lack of medical or baby knowledge!! haha Thanks for all of the comments left on the previous chapter too! I love reading them and they motivate me so it's all down to you!! Right I'll stop blabbering now. Nighty Night Barbz!*

Friday 13 July 2012

You're Never Alone - Part One (Full Chapter)

He stood at the door not knowing whether to knock or just turn away. Dropping his hand down letting the bouquet of flowers brush against his leg, he sighed and ran his hand over his face and moved slowly towards the door knocking hesitantly. He knew that now there was no turning back, unless nobody was home. There was silence so he figured his last guess was right and was angry that plucking up the courage to do all of this was pointless, just as he was about to walk away he heard somebody calling out from inside the house. It sounded like Nicki.

"Ayo, Nic? You in there?" He knocked again, only louder and shouting too. There was no reply though.

"Musta been next door." He murmured to himself as he made his way back to his car. Just as he was about to get in he heard a faint smashing sound, which he knew definitely came from the direction of her house. Dropping the flowers he approached the door again.

"Nicki? Please, I just wanna talk?" He was now sounding desperate, he tried the handle and to his shock it opened. However, nothing could have prepared him for what he was about to see.


He ran over to her, forgetting that he was probably the last person she wanted to see.


"Shit Nicki! What's happened? Where's SB?" He was panicking a bit as she was still on her knees leaning on the coffee table. She'd knocked her glass on to the floor so he figured that's what the smashing was. He looked over Nicki, she wasn't answering him and instead she was trying to control her breathing before letting out a cry of pain as she doubled over again grasping at her stomach.


"Ugghh Drake..why the fuck are you here?!" She spat angrily. She may have been in tremendous pain but that didn't change the way she felt about him and what he did to her.


"Look, I just came to talk to you. But right now I don't think that's important!" He knelt down to her level and attempted to help her up but she just slapped his hand away.


"The fuck?! Don't fuckin' act like you care all of a sudden!" She laughed dryly, letting out small deep breaths as the pain subsided slowly. She was still panting slightly, she knew what was happening but kept denying it in her mind. 


"Onika, I am truly sorry for what I did that night! I'm not askin' for you to take me back or whatever, I just need you to know that I'm sorry. And you know that wasn't me, Aubrey. It was the alcohol." He snapped out of his sad thoughts when he saw tears streaming down her face, she still refused to look at him. "Nicki? Oh fuck this shit, Imma call an ambulance. Where's the phone at in this place?" He looked around but her small, shaky voice soon answered his question.


"It's broken...my cell died...you have one on you?" She asked between deep breaths as she felt the same pain coming back, only this time more intense. Drake's face dropped as he patted all of his pockets realising his cellphone was at home, a fifteen minute drive away. He started to panic even more when Nicki screwed up her face as she let out a series of painful groans.


"Shit, it's back home...where's yo' charger I'll just make the call when it's plugged in...and how long have you been like this?" He was becoming more concerned as he again bent down to her level. But she couldn't answer him.


"Mmmmmmm." She now had her head tucked with her chin almost to her chest, and just continued making monotonous humming sounds between short, shallow breaths. It felt like an eternity to Drake but in reality she was only like that for about fifty seconds. "It's in my room....on the desk." She answered breathlessly before gaining the air to finish what she was saying. "And I've been...like this since Faree left at about...seven." She relaxed some more as the pain had gone. Drake looked at the clock on the wall which told him it was now ten thirty. She had been like this alone for almost four hours. He ran to get her charger, making the phone call for an ambulance as soon as it had enough battery power. "Call Faree as well, I need him here now..." She started crying again. Truthfully she was petrified but at the same time she was angry that Drake would just march in here like nothing happened. She was grateful though, if it wasn't for him...she didn't even want to imagine what would be happening right now.


"Why didn't you call an ambulance earlier?" He questioned as he moved quickly back over to her. A question he would wish he never asked.


"Excuse ME?! I can't even fucking move right now! I feel like I'm dying!" she snapped quite loudly as the tears rolled down her face. "...I'm in fucking labour Drake." She paused, breathing heavily whilst Drake stood in shock, he was brought back by her yelling. "And why the fuck aren't you on the phone with Faree right now?!" She braced herself for the oncoming pain as she winced and started to moan again, swaying back and forth on her knees. Drake could tell something was happening as her breath quickened before each time she did it.


"I texted him, he's on his way and the ambulance said about twenny to thirty minutes before they get here-" Before he could continue a frantic Safaree burst through the door, surprisingly he blocked Drake out and went straight to Nicki.


"Oh god, Faree you're here-" He cut her off as she recovered from the last contraction. 


"I'm sorry baby, I knew I shoulda stayed home tonight!" He was frustrated with himself, if only he had stayed home Nicki would already be in the hospital now. She couldn't answer so she squeezed his hand reassuringly. Drake was still stuck on the word Safaree called her, 'baby'.


"I was gon' take her to the hospital in my car but she said she can't move." Drake interjected, Safaree was itching to beat him right there, right now but he was glad he was with them. How else would he have known to come home early.


"S'fine, besides I don't think we'd make it, the roads are mad busy and it's freezing...probably isn't good for a baby to be born out in that." He motioned to the rain hammering down on the lounge room window pane. They were both interrupted by Nicki.


"Oh god no, no, no!" Her voice got higher pitched with each 'no' being said. She was looking down at the area between her legs, and there staining the floor was a puddle of fluid. "My waters broke.." After all their nights of reading on the internet Safaree knew that after the waters are released, it's the real thing. Nicki was about to give birth in their lounge room. Thinking quickly he whipped his phone out and called Klara as he rubbed Nicki's back soothingly, he had Klara on speed dial ever since their first visit to the hospital. None of them could think straight, hence their inability to act effectively on what was happening. Klara answered cheerfully but soon turned serious as Safaree explained what was going on. They couldn't believe the ambulance still hadn't arrived, Klara however was only minutes away as she had just finished a house visit with some new parents.


"Nic, klara's on her way now but she said we have to make sure you're comfortable." He pulled her back gently as he talked to her making her sit down with her back resting on the foot of the couch. "...and we'll have to take these off, kay?" He tugged at her underwear, looking at her as if asking permission before he completely removed them. She just nodded solemnly, she was glad about wearing an overly baggy t-shirt now, she didn't want to be completely exposed. She felt so vulnerable just sat on the floor with no underwear on, they were soon distracted as they heard the door opening.....


*I'm really sorry guys, I really don't like this but I had to post it cause I wanna go to sleep! I'm still sick and tired so y'all can just have this and LIKE IT! :((( Alsooo I have never had a kid before nor have I ever seen one being delivered so I have no CLUE what I am chatting about!! XD Just pretend I'm right! ^_^ Thanks for all of the comments left on the sneak peek!! Laughing @SoftLykeButta being super dramatic saying it was gonna take foreverrrrrrrrrr XD one last thing..I'm going back to university next week :''''( so I will alternate weekly between updates for Here I Am and Forever Young so you'll only get a chapter for an individual blog every 2 weeks, you know what I mean?? :((  Oh and thanks to the reader who said get better too me!! Hopefully I recover soon haha, well I hope you enjoy :/ sorry for any mistakes, it's like really late here... Muuah*

Thursday 12 July 2012

*Sneak Peek* You're Never Alone - Part One

*This is a really, really, really short sneak peek guys but it's late here and I have work in the morning sooo I apologise! Hope you like!*

He stood at the door not knowing whether to knock or just turn away. Dropping his hand down letting the bouquet of flowers brush against his leg, he sighed and ran his hand over his face and moved slowly towards the door knocking hesitantly. He knew that now there was no turning back, unless nobody was home. There was silence so he figured his last guess was right and was angry that plucking up the courage to do all of this was pointless, just as he was about to walk away he heard somebody calling out from inside the house. It sounded like Nicki.

"Ayo, Nic? You in there?" He knocked again, only louder and shouting too. There was no reply though.

"Musta been next door." He murmured to himself as he made his way back to his car. Just as he was about to get in he heard a faint smashing sound, which he knew definitely came from the direction of her house. Dropping the flowers he approached the door again.

"Nicki? Please, I just wanna talk?" He was now sounding desperate, he tried the handle and to his shock it opened. However, nothing could have prepared him for what he was about to see.

*Boom! I WILL post the rest of part one tomorrow I PROMISE!! Also I am super sick *glares at Nicki* so just think about me sniffling and coughing whilst I write for you all! XD I'm kidding! Goodnight Barbz *kisses your foreheads*

*NOTE*

Kay, so thank you to all who commented and left baby boy names ^_^ I wrote them all down on separate pieces of paper, folded them and put them in a hat and then chose one cause I have NO LIFE haha but I'm not gonna tell you which one was chosen UNTIL Nicki has him. I believe the choice was out of Carter, Nathan, Noah and Aidan and then somebody smartly recommended a middle name too, thanks! Y'all will just have to wait and see, seeing as I have no idea when the next post will be *shrugs* NIGHT BARBZ :* Muuah

Wednesday 11 July 2012

Closer Still

Jelani jogged swiftly up to the front door. He was sure nobody else was home, he had been watching the house for a good hour and a half. Like a predator stalking it's prey. Before Drake had chance to close the door, Jelani shoved his foot in it to stop it from shutting.

"Dude, what the fuck?!" Drake argued as he tried to shove the stranger back out. But he was no match for this guy. Safaree admittedly was a struggle, but Jelani was something else. He felt helpless as he was rammed back into his own house and pinned against the wall with intense force.

"I hear you been messin' with my baby sister! Then I hear you fuckin' laid your hands on her, that right boy?!" He sounded crazed but calm and as he was only inches away from Drake's face it kind of freaked him out a little bit.

"What the fuck are you talkin' 'bout? Damn crazy ass nigga!!" He knew he probably shouldn't have answered back like that. Not to mention acting like he didn't know who Jelani was talking about. He tightened his grip around Drake's shirt and shoved him harder into the wall, the veins in his neck looked as though they were about to pop out and his eyes had a deranged look in them.

"I'm not 'bout to stand here and listen to yo' lame ass excuses! But if you go anywhere near her again..." He sucked air through his teeth before gritting them and talking again. "...You won't live to see another day! Got it?!" Drake was hesitant to nod but the force behind Jelani's grip on him increased causing him to nod ferociously. He let go of him an watched him fall into a heap on the floor gasping for breath. "You pathetic piece of shit!" He shook his head as stepped over him and left as if nothing had happened.

***

Danika was stood looking out of the front window. It was almost dark. "Where the hell are you Lani?" She whispered to herself as she felt someone stood next to her.

"He'll be here soon, don't you start worrying too! Onika's sat bouncing her knee waiting on him!" Mama Carol laughed as she put her arm around her. "Thank you for doing all of this for her, we all really appreciate it." Danika smiled at her.

"It's really no problem! I love doing stuff like this! Besides I'm really happy for Nic, she's gon' be a great Mom." She nodded her head in Nicki's direction, she was sat with everyone in the lounge room playing with Caiah. Mama Carol sighed, she still couldn't believe her baby was about to have her own baby.

"I know she is. Now come on let's go check on this food of yours! It smells delicious." They both disappeared back into the kitchen.

Nicki looked around for minute, she couldn't see Safaree anywhere and guessed he must be in the bathroom so she went and checked. Nothing. After searching almost everywhere she finally found him in his room on his laptop, he hadn't heard her come in or close the door quietly. Tiptoeing over to him, she put her hand on his shoulder making him jump.

"Nic, shit you scared the fuckin' crap outta me!" He held his hand on his chest as he tried to regain his breath.

"Aw, I'm sorry." She said as she pouted and squished on to the bed next to him. "What are you doin' in here anyway? Don't you wanna be out there?"

"No, I was just...looking up on some stuff, thas all." He shut his laptop and turned to face her.

"What kinda stuff Faree?" She tilted her head, which he found adorable.

"Kay, I'll tell your nosy ass...but promise not to laugh?" He looked at her sternly, whilst she tried to look serious and nod her head. "Well, I was lookin' up info about nestin' and shit." He tried to play off his answer by shrugging and acting like it was nothing before talking again. "Y'know it says that sometimes it's a sign that you 'bout to go into labour?" He looked at her, now laying down, and moved so that he was slightly over her.

"Forreal? So....I could be, like, goin' into labour soon?" She sounded a worried and he didn't want her to start stressing.

"Ion know....you still got....like three months left.....so don't worry." He said in between kisses as his answer turned into a whisper, he felt her breathing quicken as she lay under him.

"Mmm, Faree." She moaned quietly into his ear as he started sucking on her neck. Being pregnant had been making her feel super horny as of late so she wasn't about to turn down this proposal. He moved down to her clavicle, then her bare breasts as he unbuttoned her blouse. Nicki's breathing got even harder and quicker as he got lower and lower. She snapped her head up quickly feeling him stop.
"Faree, why'd you stop?" He felt bad as she sounded quite hurt by his actions.

"I'm sorry...I just can't, it don't feel right while you're, y'know?" He motioned to her bump as she lay her hands on either side of it protectively. "But I'm not against other things..." He trailed off as he leaned over her once again, taking complete control. Their little make out session was interrupted about ten minutes in by Danika knocking on the door.

"Safaree, you in there? We can't find Nicki, please tell me she's with you?"

"Yup...we were just...looking up some more baby stuff on the internet, you can come in." They had both fixed themselves up at this point and placed the laptop in front of them to cover their lie. Danika just looked at them both and smiled.

"Okay, well Lani's home and the food is gon' be ready in, like two minutes and then...." She clapped her hands together and squealed. "Nicki is gon' open all of her presents!" She grinned even more before turning to leave, with one last comment.

"Oh and Nicki? You might wanna do your blouse up babe, we don't wanna see your baby feedin' tools hangin' out, kay? She winked at a blushing Nicki, who was fumbling around with her buttons, before shutting the door behind her. She looked as Safaree smirking.

"Oop!" As she said that they both burst out into a fit a giggles until she pulled forward, wincing in pain.

"Nic? What's wrong?" He sat upright quickly as she just shook her head.

"Nothing, just felt a little tight, thas all." She smiled as he kissed her forehead and they both made their way back out to sit with the others.

*** Six Weeks Later ***

The baby shower was a highlight of Nicki's pregnancy and having everyone there, except her father and Drake, made it all the more special. Jelani and Danika had gone back to Florida and even though Nicki was sad to see them go she knew that had to leave. Everything seemed to be looking up for them now, Klara had done another ultrasound on Nicki at her last appointment and confirmed that the baby's heart beat was getting stronger and more regular now, so Nicki and Safaree were ecstatic. She was a little bit apprehensive though, she was now seven and a half months pregnant and she had an eerie feeling. She just didn't know what about.

"Faree, can you bring me the painkillers and a glass of water on your way through?" She was laying on the couch after Safaree ordered she have a rest. He had found her at midnight in the kitchen scrubbing out all of the cupboards and placing all of the items back in neatly. The night before that she was folding and re-folding all of the tiny clothes in the baby's room. He wasn't alarmed though, he read that it would be something she might do.

"Here. Why'd you need it, are you hurting bad?" He asked whilst sliding on to the couch with her.

"No....well, yeah, my back is just aching like bitch and my head is pounding." she looked at his worried face and shrugged. "Probably because I was on my hands and knees cleaning for too long, and not had enough sleep." She pecked his lips after swallowing the pills. "Imma try and have a sleep now, I wanna be awake when you leave." She wriggled around finally getting comfy on her side, resting on his chest. He had to go to work in two hours, he didn't want to leave her though especially not now he knew she was in pain but he knew he had to, there were bills to pay.

Strangely Nicki woke as Safaree was about to leave, he saw how peacefully she was sleeping and didn't want to wake her. "Hey, you leavin' without a goodbye?" She pouted as he made his way back over to her and kissed her, for what seemed like ages before moving down to her growing bump and kissed it too.

"I'll be back at about eleven. Don't open the door for nobody, right?" She just nodded as he acknowledged her and left the house. She was about to drift off again when her phone buzzed, warning her it was low battery. Safaree had urged her to keep it charged as the house phone was broken, so if she needed help her cellphone was the only thing to contact anyone quickly on. Slowly getting up to grab it she felt an intense pain rip through her as she struggled to steady herself on the coffee table.....

*>___> hahaaa sorry kids! I just had to do it! Thanks soooo much for all of your comments on the previous chapter! That is the most I have EVER received, not counting the times I commented in reply to you guys!! ^___^ I was super happy!! Well hope this was alright for everybody...also if/when you comment please could you tell me your favourite name for a boy....Well, you don't have to but I have no clue what Imma name this little boy :/ So your help would be GREAT! Muuah*

Monday 9 July 2012

The Time Is Nearing

*Not a very dialogue filled chapter, sorry guys :/ Hope it's ok for you all*

Nicki and Safaree just lay on the couch completely stuffed after their meal out with Jelani and Danika, who had now gone to see Mama Carol before they went to a hotel for the night.

"I can't believe how much you ate!" Safaree laughed as he turned to face her. She just pouted at him before getting up and heading to her room, she returned about 5 minutes later in a baggy t-shirt that used to be Safaree's and a pair of pink boy shorts. Nicki hated the cold normally and ever since she got pregnant the hate became so much stronger so the house was constantly heated to keep her happy.

"Move over we need more space." She placed one hand on her bump and flicked the back of his head making him hiss and immediately start rubbing the area she hurt, he did as she said making enough room for her between his legs. Carefully she climbed into the gap and made herself comfy. "That's better!" She sighed happily in his arms with her back resting on his chest, she knew she should probably just go to bed because she'd fall asleep as soon as she shut her eyes, which is exactly what she did. Safaree wasn't tired yet so he just let her sleep while he watched the TV, Nicki wasn't easily woken so he figured it would be ok. She did keep fidgeting though so he quickly muted it thinking that the noise was disturbing her, when he noticed her brow was furrowed. What he saw next was really strange. As he sat there staring he moved his hand to Nicki's bump and gently rested it there and surely enough he could feel what he was seeing. The baby was moving, he guessed that's why Nicki was squirming around with an uncomfortable look on her face. It felt so weird, no wonder she looked angry in her sleep. He was pulled out of his thoughts by Nicki's hand unconsciously coming down to hold her stomach, he moved out of her way and continued watching TV.

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Nicki woke up at about midnight in her own bed. She looked around trying to remember how she got there when she realised Safaree must have carried her to bed. She felt cold and lonely so she made her way out of her room and gently opened Safaree's door only to see him sleeping wild. She closed the door as quietly as she could behind her and carefully crawled up under the covers and into the tiny little space near his back. She watched him for a while, not in a creepy way...just admiring him as he inhaled and exhaled steadily. She tried to get closer, feeling the cold all of a sudden, finally finding the right place to settle where she drifted back off to sleep in no time.

The next day Safaree woke up to find the covers completely snatched away from him and bundled around a tiny shape next to him, he could see it rising and falling slowly. Shaking his head he trudged quietly out to the bathroom to proceed with his morning duties. He had a lot planned for today, and it made things a lot easier knowing that Nicki was asleep.

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Again, waking up after midday, Nicki decided that lounging around didn't really suit her so she showered and got dressed before making her way in to the lounge room. After feeding herself a plentiful amount she had the intense urge to clean, she hated cleaning but this was just something that she felt like she had to do. Without questioning her desire she got to work, scrubbing, vacuuming and dusting the whole house from top to bottom until it was absolutely pristine. Heading into the only room left, which would eventually be her baby's, she almost dropped all of the cleaning objects in her hands. She stood with her mouth gaping open, walking in slowly trying to take in all of the surroundings. The whole room had been decorated and furnished. The walls were painted a pastel blue as well as the carpet and a small rug in the centre of the room, which all went well with the little white crib in the corner near a set of drawers. She moved over to the rocking chair, which was sat near the crib, and made herself comfy on it. She was so caught up with the room right at that moment, she didn't even hear the front door open. Safaree and Danika were watching her from the doorway when she looked up at their smiling faces.

"Guys! When the hell did y'all get time to do this?!" She stood up slowly as she went over to them.

"Actually, all I did was buy and pick out the clothes..." She looked at Safaree. "He did the rest...anyway, I'll go make us a drink." She smiled and left them to have a moment.

"Safaree, I don't even know what to say!......Thank you so much, I love it." She reached up on her tiptoes and kissed him lightly on his lips before grabbing his hand and leading him out of the room.

"Do you like what I did?" She stood proudly next to him as he Danika and looked around in awe at how clean the house was.

"Onika? Cleaning? Forreal?" She playfully hit him on the arm and made herself comfy on the couch.

"Aww, Nicki's nesting!" Danika squealed on her way through to the lounge room. Safaree started laughing before looking at them both staring at him. "It really happens y'know?" Danika looked at him seriously. "And it's gon' get a lot worse than just cleaning." She looked back at Nicki who was now giggling at Safaree's confused and worried face.

"Why d'you gotta make her sound like a bird or somethin'?" He rubbed his head and sat down next to Nicki. Danika just cackled at his question.

"No, dumbass! That's what it's called! She's preparing the house for the new arrival." She put her hand on Nicki's bump as Nicki just nodded at Safaree, who now looked even more confused.

".....Anyway, Candi and Lauren are coming over later. Lauren was rambling about having to give you a present for the Bump's six month birthday or somethin' like that." Nicki's eyes widened.

"Oh yeah! I'm officially six months pregnant today!" She beamed, grabbing both of their hands and pushing them on to her bump. They just laughed at her being all excited.

"Hey? Where's Lani?" Nicki looked at Danika questioningly. Honestly she didn't really know either.

"I dunno, he said he had some business to take care of before he came here. But he'll be here later don't worry!.....Your Mom and Caiah are coming too, I'm gon' cook for y'all as like a liddle celebration!" She grinned, Nicki loved how carried away Danika got with things like this. That's why she couldn't wait to go and look at all of the clothes she had picked out for her baby boy. She knew they'd be super cute.
They continued to converse and laugh amongst one another until Candi, Lauren, Mama Carol and Caiah arrived. It was like a casual baby shower. At that moment Nicki couldn't have been any happier.

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Jelani looked at the address once more as he sat in his car outside of the house. He was at the right place, no doubt about it as he saw Drake making his way in through the front door.

"Found you." He said to himself before opening the car door.....

*DON'T YELL!! I'm sorry I really did mean to make this a MUCH longer chapter but....I left it too late :/ sorry! Anyway I have a different idea, Imma just keep going until Nic has the baby and then maybe do two chapters after that to explain a name an alladat blah blah blah and THEN I will fast forward a year...or two but I'll decide that when I get closer to actually being there, kay?? Hope this was okay, was a little slow but...yeeaah :/ Muuah and THANKS FOR COMMENTING ALL OF YOU WHO DID!! ^_^ *